Self Evaluation

This year has started off in such a melancholy fashion. Events in my past concerning the people associated with a medium I've fallen in love with have ruined my perception of what it means to be in KCAI. When I first wanted to come to this school, I was so excited. Finally there would be a group of people who were just like me and were training to become the next group of legendary animators, like Genndy Tartokofsky, Butch Hartmen or Seth MacFarlane. Only to get settled in, and see the total opposite. The work that comes out of this department, especially with the seniors (not all) have been so bad and fully of tired cliches that I've lost hope. The idea in my head says, this is good because I can use my talents to really stand out, but when I see people graduating with absolutely no potential in this field of work, I then question how meaningful my work is. If everyone can pass, what's the point of doing my best and better yet, did I graduate because I'm good and ready, or because I just made something?

This state of mind put me into a huge depression and classes such as this one were no exception to my pessimistic views altering my motivation or interest. So I can't honestly say, I've been happy. Which can make me seem distracted or uninterested. 

I'm getting over this depression, coming to realizations and understanding who I am and why I'm here to begin with. But a subjective point of view, doesn't tell what I think I should receive or how I'm doing in the class. On the positive side of things, in this class, just like any other assignment, I make sure it's completed on time to the best of my capabilities and learn new skills that'll help me further and I come to class everyday on time. However on the negative side, the draw back of this class is that I feel like it's meant for more photogenic art mediums like sculpture etc. Probably anything other than animation. I put my standards very high and want to look nothing but professional, so I have a limited supply of things I can post. Not to mention financial troubles hindering me from getting certain things done. With these things happening, naturally, certain details of an assignment are sacrificed.

However, I feel that in coming to talk to my teacher about these concerns, these situations are no more than a legitimate situational issue rather than an act of making "excuses". 

So in conclusion I certainly don't think I deserve an A, those are usually reserved for people who go above and beyond and succeed. But I'm doing my best to perform well in the class, and showing initiative to hurtle through my obstacles. In my opinion I believe a B or at least an average (C) is in order.